And I though

And I though tonight we be the SO-CALLED best night I ever had since last year - cuz my dad was saying , " how about we go for CHOP later at The Ships ? " my dad to my mum --- and I was like FUCK YEAHHH - huh bitch since last year December i had not even celebrated Xmas and countdown - yeah . Imagine in from of your computer gearing fireworks and peoples posting how they are enjoying their time - and you in your house living in despair --

And I really though it will be a good night , you know - dine , and a "shut-up" and eat session.

But SOME FUCKING REASONS - ON THE WAT BACK - my dad ask about my report card - WHICH IS GOING TO FUCKING BUTT-RAPE ME TO THE CORE - so yeah, NOT GOOD RESULTS GOT FUCKED - WELL NOT REALLY FUCK , BUT SEMI FUCk

Yeah so that's all I guess -- stupid Xmas 2010 yay !!!!

=.= same with last year - but luckily this year is so fucked up that I am numb tirades the word sad and despair -

All I know is FML

AND santa ALL I WISH IS A PEN KNIFE OR AT LEAST SOMETHING THAT CAB MAKE ME LEAVE MY LIFE AND ALSO EASE MY PAIN

Holidays gonna end soon - and I never even step out of my house.....All they say is me wasting time doing nothing and all I do is listening to songs and online - they never think before that if you online everyday and no one gives a fuck about what you are posting and what new songs you've made is NOT FUN AND NOT HAPPY - MOTHERFUgs

So I was chatting with one of friend - and she was asking what I did thus holidays -- sudden flashback of the past Xmas and Countdown experience came to me -- picture this

You're dad is watching Tv and your step mother on the Pc

You are in your room - thinking nothing , doing nothing , just wish to go out -

Suddenly you hear fireworks - and you start thinking why can't I go out and celebrate ?

Why the last time was not like that ? Why all have changed ?, what happened to the word Hang out or Gai Gai ?

This few thoughts have been in my mind until this day

YES , I have to say that in one year I do went out wit my friends - and the number of going out is LOW - compared to normal people

All I have to say is -

I feel very sad seeing how people enjoying their life and hanging out With buddies
And now I am in my house WASTING MY TIME ( thanks parents for saying that ) --

Why say I'm wasting my time ?

1) I cant go out - cuz you don't let
2) I cant even go for sports
3) MY FUCKING HOUSE IS FUCKING EMPTY
4) I AM ALL ALONE IN THIS FUCKING HOUSE
5) playing with iPod - THAT'S THE ONLY MOTHERFUCKING THING I GOT TO KEEP ME ENTERTAINED --- BOOKS ?? FUCK BOOKS I HAD ENOUGH OF BOOKS THIS WHOLE YEAR IT'S TIME FOR SOME REST THIS MONTH AND I WANT TO ENJOY NOT SUFFER FUCKErs !!!!!!!!!


And the not wasting time
1) Following you people going out - to find stuff for our house and I don't really enjoy that - I have to wake up early
2) during the outing period - I might get fucked by you peoples
3) Standing there like a fucking penis while you two are discussing about the stuff with the salesman (Y) thumbs up for dicks


Wow, and I though finding someone special could give me fun and at least something to be happy - but no , she's the one who makes my life worst

Thanks Alot to you all

ALL YOU PRICKS ! , COCKS ! , DICKBAGS ! , ALL YPU FUCKING BASTARDS !

Rotting in my house ,
Adriel

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